My Life, My Jesus - by Esther Kan September 25, 2007
Posted by Han in : Testimony , trackbackHi, I’m Esther. ‘Esther’ was given by my pastor while I was studying at United Kingdom back in 1996. How time flies and now after about nearly 13 years, I am still serving my beloved Jesus Christ. This is a story, a story of a simple, ordinary girl that had encountered someone who changes her life forever through a simple channel, HIS LOVE!
I came from a Buddhist background with both parents, especially, my mum who was once very actively involved in Taoism rites and ritual worship. Of course, I was brought up having these beliefs in my life.
God in His ever merciful and gracious acts did send people to share of His love for me, when I was in my teens, but being obstinate and stubborn, I proudly rejected Him. Not until did I go through the storms of life during my young age, did I begin to find the meaning of life; through the eyes of Jesus.
Just to share my life to those who are seeking, and yet find themselves lost in this world. I was once like that. Back when I was in Form Six, I had problems with my right kidney, diagnosed during a routine check up by an insurance company medical practitioner. I had to immediately undergo an operation to rectify the problem.
Life was ok after that till my late twenties when I had stones in my right kidney. At that point of time, I was having depression and insomnia, and I even thought of ending my life. I love to study yet did not manage to further my studies, thus aggravating the situation. I wanted to have a better pay but with no degree to back me up in this world of rat race, I was further thrown in the abyss of no return.
During the darkest period of my life, I stood crying in front of my dressing table and praying someone out there to solve my problems, praying to whom or what, I did not know, but I was desperate.
A few weeks later I was invited to attend my friend’s graduation dinner. The pastor called for those with kidney problems yet I did not go to the front, then his wife called me to the stage and prophesied over me, I cried and gave my life to Jesus.
She then took me to the hotel lobby ( it was in Singapore ) and told me straight into my face that I had planned to end my life, and the next thing she asked me was, to open my mouth and utter something.
I opened my mouth and made some sounds, which later I knew it was me speaking in tongues at that time. I never knew what tongues are until then. However, I remembered I was not frightened, I just felt peaceful and safe. Life for me after that night, back in November 1994, was never the same again.
I was given two consecutive government scholarships to continue my studies right up to Master level and now am blessed with a wonderful job as a lecturer in a local institution. I was healed of insomnia and depression, not immediately, but within a year after receiving Jesus. I read my bible, prayed and attended church faithfully.
I have many wonderful testimonies of how God has changed my life, He who has no sin, yet died for me, a sinner, so that I could taste the goodness of God, Jesus, in my life. My life is nothing without Jesus. Jesus is my life, and my life is in Him.
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